Julianna May

Today’s the day, I’m
Giving into temptations again.
My heart is heavy.
I’ve been telling myself that
I have to feel something.
Why do I see hearts everywhere?
Does this mean I’m in love?
I’ve never known love..
And I don’t think 
I want to feel it at all.
But am I obligated to feel? No.
They tell me I’m in love.
When did I grow fonder?
I really wish I hadn’t.
So now I’ll finish it. 
Tonight’s the night, I’m
Overcoming temptation right now.
Please don’t come back. 
I don’t want to love you. 
Now I don’t see hearts everywhere.
And you’re just a memory. 
Maybe I was making myself 
Believe that if one thing
Goes right it means love.
Someday I’ll believe in it. 
But today, it will be
My last day of you.